Justin Kirby

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Time Of My Life

Can’t even explain how the last Friday and Saturday has been.  I can’t even put it into words.  But…you’re here…this is a blog…so, naturally, I’m going to try.

Things are happening…for the better…for everyone around me.  I remember saying, last year, that 2012 was going to be everyone’s year.  This is going to be the year that everything changes for everyone.  I prayed that everyone would experience the true essence of life.

I can’t even begin to tell you how happy, how truly excited, I am to sit back and watch BIG things, GREAT THINGS, happen in the life of my family and friends.
Cyndy started her new job at the beginning of the year.  I started a business venture with a good friend.  We bought a house two days ago.
One more item I can’t discuss on here just yet because this is a public, openly accessible forum.  But the time will come that I can break the news on that.

I’m overwhelmed.

Our beautiful friends all got together last night and threw a surprise party for Cyndy and I - congratulating us on the house.

It’s almost too much.

It’s all happening way too fast, but I’m loving every minute of it.


But I’ve got to say there’s no other way,
Cause I’m having the time of my life!

Now Playing:Time Of My Life by 3 Doors Down

Behind The Lens

Wow.

I’ve been saying that a lot lately.  Life has changed so much in the last couple of months.

My wife has a fantastic job, and I have joined forces with a good friend of mine and we’re officially starting a photography business.

There’s just so much to photography.

Freedom…
Enjoyment…
Artistic expression…

I don’t even really know what else to say.

For many years, I’ve tried to convince myself that I was a web designer.  While I do pride myself in being somewhat knowledgable in that field, it just wasn’t working out, no matter what I did or how hard I tried.  It just wasn’t meant to be.

But this photography gig took off…and I mean it took off like an uncontrollable wildfire!

There are wrong ways to code a website.  I’m a the kind of typer that has that lazy pinky…the one that will magically (and randomly) tap the period key…and completely destroy this site I’ve worked weeks on.  You can have the wrong styles, fonts, colors, logos, text, placement…bad links…little-to-no SEO.  Not to mention the fact that you’re stuck glaring at a screen for countless hours at a time.

Grab a camera and head downtown and watch what happens to your outlook on life.  When you step behind the lens and see everything through it as an art form, things change.  It won’t stop, either.  Even sitting at Chik-Fil-A tonight with Andrew, just looking around in the less-than one hour we were there, I probably took 50 mental photos.  The employees smiling.  The families and their kids having a good time.  The CFA Cow that was trying to box me because I told him that I just got a bunch of beef from the butcher (TRUE STORY!).  It never ends.  And that’s not a bad thing.

So, I think I am officially done with Apex Media (I still have a couple of things I need to take care of, you know who you are and, no, I haven’t forgotten about you).  And I can say I’m done with it and smile.  

You know where to find me…

…behind the lens…

I finally got it back. (Taken with instagram)

I finally got it back. (Taken with instagram)

More coffee…more coding.  (Taken with instagram)

More coffee…more coding. (Taken with instagram)

The usual morning start: oatmeal, coffee, and web coding. (Taken with instagram)

The usual morning start: oatmeal, coffee, and web coding. (Taken with instagram)

Half-empty or half-full? In the case for coffee…half-empty. (Taken with instagram)

Half-empty or half-full? In the case for coffee…half-empty. (Taken with instagram)

Different Light

Trying to force myself to look at things differently.

Some points are harder than others.

While the loss of our child hurt deeply, I am thankful for the few times I was able to hear the heartbeat and the thought of being a father was priceless.

While getting laid off from a great paying job killed us financially, I’m thankful for the opportunities I was given afterward.  I was able to do things, and go places, that I’ll probably never do again in my life.

While the loss of my father-in-law is still a burden on my mind, I’m eternally grateful for having known him, loved him, and for the man he’s helped me become.  If you knew Tim, even for only a short while, he had a positive impact on you.  That’s just the way he was.

You should try it some time.  Try seeing the silver lining in a tragic moment.

It changes everything.

It’s a bit CHILI out…

Note:  This recipe will work with just about any type of ground meat: turkey, chicken, beef - I haven’t tried sausage yet, but I imagine it’d be just fine, as well.

What you need:

  • 3 Tablespoons olive oil (don’t skimp, get the good stuff - cold pressed)
  • 1.5 cups chopped onion (a large white onion works well)
  • 6-8 large garlic cloves, chopped (more or less to suit your taste.  Just note in the grand scheme of this recipe, 8 large cloves might seem like a lot, but it cooks down and into the chili)
  • 3 pounds ground meat (see note above)
  • 4 good sized jalapeños, seeded or not - depending on how much of a kick you want
  • 1 packet taco/chili seasoning of your choice (there’s a lot to choose from, so have fun here)
  • 1 teaspoon dried basil
  • 1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
  • 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme
  • 1 15 oz. can tomato sauce
  • 3 cups chicken OR vegetable broth (or live on the edge and go 1.5 cups of each)
  • 1 6 oz. can tomato paste
  • 2 15 oz. cans of kidney beans - drained

And let the madness fun begin!

Step One:

Heat oil in a sauce pan.  Don’t take it over a medium heat or you’ll burn the onions and garlic you’re going to throw in next.

Do I have to say it?  Really?!
Add the garlic and onions and sauté for 8-10 minutes.
The beautiful smell, at this point, will already drive you nuts so prepare yourself.

Step Two:

Add ground meat into the garlic/onion mix and cook until brown, and break up meat with a spatula as it cooks.  DO NOT over-cook the meat as the meat will continue to cook in the next steps and over-cooking it will severely dry the meat out.  If you can say to yourself, “The meat will be done in the next couple of minutes…”, go ahead and move on to the next step.

Step Three:

Add all dry mix ingredients (taco/chili seasoning, basil, oregano, and thyme).  Stir around for approximately two minutes.

Step Four:

Now it’s time to bring in the wet ingredients.  Mix in the tomato sauce and paste, and the broth.
Let this simmer for about 2 hours, or until it’s thickened to your desired consistency.  Be sure to stir it around occasionally to prevent it from sticking to the pan.

Mix in beans AFTER the simmering stage.

Once you get to this point, you’ll want to dig in a start eating - DON’T!

Here’s the most important step, outside of the four steps listed above, in making this chili:  Refrigerate until cold then reheat over a medium heat.  I generally like to make it the night before, and let it sit in the fridge all night and reheat it for dinner the next day.

There you have it.  

This can easily serve 4 people, and if you can refrain from buying name brand things (except the olive oil, there really is no such thing as cheap cold-pressed E.V.O.O.), you can easily make this for around $20 - and that’s only if you have absolutely nothing on the ingredient list, so, of course, slightly cheaper if you have certain things already in your cabinets.

All is right with the world.

In my world, I guess.

Hate the fact I work so much, but loving the fact that I do work and make money.  I’ve been on the unemployed side of things - not fun.

Christmas is close.  I will be wrapping Cyndy’s gift next weekend.  :::evil grin:::

Peace and love all.  Don’t forget to you tell your family and friends how much you appreciate them.

Listening to: The Roots - CD: Undun

Life’s Passion

You have to go with what you know and capitalize on it every single chance you get.

Here’s what that means for me…

I’ve been a HUGE fan of Full Sail University for quite a long time now.  I would always get on their website and get catalogs for the different programs they offered, call them about admissions - knowing at the time I couldn’t do it, have lengthy conversations with them when they’d call me about my “future plans,” … all-in-all, just completely enamored by this college.  I don’t know if it’s the nerd in me that gets excited about the mention of Full Sail…I just don’t know…but no other college on the planet will ever meet my expectations of a school like Full Sail does.  

And for the last year, I have been a very happy Full Sail student.

In this year, I have gone from studying graphic design to music production.  Now, while I love, and I can’t stress that word enough, BOTH of those fields deeply, I just don’t think that in either one of those fields I can be truly satisfied with a full-time career.  While I do still want to run a small recording studio, I think that idea has been bumped down to a nice garage-type setup rather than officially owning my own shop.

I have been a web designer for 8 years now.  I’ve gone from extremely crappy table-based, horribly designed sites to, what I would consider, above-average, nicely laid-out CSS3 designs.

It’s a passion.  I love learning about ways to design and code layouts better.

Unfortunately, I had to make the hard decision to withdraw from Full Sail.  I had to prioritize making money more than schooling - so I maximized my hours at work.
But, when I go back, I will be going for a Bachelor’s degree in Web Design and Programming.  

Since all of my Gen. Ed. classes are done, I’m going to jump right in to the core classes for the degree - 24 months from then, I will be a graduate.

I see good things on the horizon.  It’s just getting there’s going to be a small problem.

But, until then, I’ll just keep hustlin’ my APEX brand and making pizzas.  It’s what I do.

So, I raise my stogie and coffee - CHEERS! 

Jobs

When I first read that Steve Jobs had passed away, I found myself initially shocked.

But the shock slowly shifted into genuine sadness - to the point that, for whatever the reason, I was actually fighting back tears. I don’t know if it’s because I have personally witnessed loved ones suffer and die because of cancer…I don’t know…

You can not argue against the fact that Steve Jobs was a true visionary. The CEO of Twitter was quoted online saying, “Once in a rare while, somebody comes along who doesn’t just raise the bar, they create an entirely new standard of measurement.”

He changed the world. Not bad for a college drop-out, huh?

Douglas Karr wrote on his Facebook page shortly after the news broke: “Apple made me stop looking at a computer like it was a tool and started making me look like it was a paintbrush to make my mark with. RIP Mr. Jobs.”

Doug then went a little deeper with a well-written and respectful blog (http://www.marketingtechblog.com/technology/steve-jobs-rip/).

Steve Jobs gave a commencement speech at Stanford University in 2005. In that speech, he says:
“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything—all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure—these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma—which is living with the results of other people’s thinking.
Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.”

He was an amazing man that lived by the words he spoke.

I close with this…
I say this in unison with the rest of the planet…
Rest in peace, Steve.

Grieving Wishes

I wish this was a topic I didn’t have to talk about from a personal point-of-view.
I wish the tattoo on my left wrist was there for a happy reason.
I wish I could be celebrating the second birthday of my son or daughter next month.
I wish I didn’t get laid off THE SAME WEEK of the miscarriage.
I wish I knew how to cope with the loss.
I wish…

I have been to the brink and back on this. I smile and cry at the same time when I think about my child. The heartbeat I once heard that will echo forever inside me. I display my tattoo proudly and will not hesitate to stop this rotating planet to tell the story of my child when someone asks what the tattoo stands for.

I love you, my child. On October 18th, I will “celebrate” 2 years of the memories and thoughts of what could have been. You will always be missed and never be forgotten.
I love you.

Change

So, once again, it’s been forever since my last post.

Where do I even begin?

In 2009, I got laid off and, admittedly, didn’t do ANYTHING for 18 months.
Then I started working temp jobs for a couple of months.
After that, Sears…but only for 15 hours a week if I was lucky…
Then started working where I’m at now.
At first, I was working part-time, performing various tasks around the shop…nothing too incredible.
Now I’m begging for at least ONE full day off a week…
All the while TRYING to run my own business from home, wanting to re-enroll in school, tend to current clients, net new ones, be a good husband and friend, go back to church…
In the last two months I have been pushed to the absolute limit on every emotion known to man - I’ve been extremely happy/excited, deeply sad/depressed, so angry at times I’ve actually scared myself, and everything in between. bipolar, much?!
And then, on top of all of THAT, we’re wanting to start trying for another kid.
Hello coffee…goodbye sleep…

I’m 29 years old and finally realizing the full potential of what life is supposed to be like.
I’m happy and excited for my future endeavors and that of my family, friends, job opportunities…the list is endless…

Fasten yourself in, pull the safety bar in, and put your hands up on this roller coaster ride. It’s gonna happen whether you like it or not, might as well enjoy it, right?!